技术更正及更新

前几天IE用户无法游览此网站的问题已经处理好了。同时也加上英文翻译。（不是翻译的很好，请见谅）

Technical issue and update.
IE user was unable to brower this web page at past few days. This porblem was resolved. At the meantime, added english translation on all topic. ( I am not good in translation,sorry)

辛苦的日子。

当人面对辛苦的日子的时候，总是觉得垂丧失去目标。我觉得这不代表是痛苦困难的时候，而是因为你曾经有过开心快乐的日子。世界不是灰色的，不要绝望。因为这世界上有许多人靠着微弱的呼吸延续自己的生命，也从不觉得生活的辛苦。你是如何看这生命的意义？

写着这部落时，我经常尝试以宽远的角度去了解一件事。除了充实自己的知识，也充实了自己的时间。

Hard time on those days.
Most of the people while having hard time in their life, always think about upset and lost his objective. I thought this does not represent is painful difficult time, But is because you have had the happy joyful day before. The world is not pessimistic,do not feel despair. Because in this world has many people to close right up against the light breath to continue own life, and never feel tough. How do you are look at this life the significance?

While writing this blog, I attempt frequently by the width far angle understand a matter. This help me to enriches my own knowledge, and also enriched my time.

期待还是等待

不 知不觉中，我一直看着手机电话。看是否有任何简讯或来电，而且期望是来自你。原来我已经习惯了收看你的简讯。同时它也越来越不争气，时不时地关掉。充电了 又充电还是一样。难道就快报销了吗？这几年里我坚持不换手机的原因有，里头有很多你的简讯。没有中文系统就不会让你觉得我隐藏了什么。因为你不会中文。

今天我取消了健身院的会员，那是我在去年八月三十一日签下的。知道你希望我有更有形的身段而买下的配套。也就是我没有给你的两周年纪念日的礼物。下午领取了我第一张信用卡，那是我们计划去旅行时申请的。现在也没有用了，打算封了它免得我财务出现赤字。


I am looking forward or wait for a chance
Unconsciously ,I look at the handset continuously. Looked whether has any new sms or incoming called ,Moreover the expectation is comes from you. A habit for so long time along those days. At the same time it also switches off itself once for a while. Keep charging it still remian same problem. Is it going reimbursed soon? In these years I persisted does not trade the handset the reason is, inside it has many of your sms. Does not have the Chinese system not to be able to let you think I hid any, because of you don't understand chinese.

Today I have cancelled the membership of fitness club. That was signed in last August 31. Knew you hoped I have a more visible figure and i get this package. Also is I has not given your second anniversary commemoration day gift。

Has received my first credit card in the afternoon。That is we plans travels time applies。Now has not used, plan sealed it so as to avoid my finance to have the deficit。

行尸走肉的日子

除了克制心情的起伏不定，日子也变得空洞。今天竟然可以坐在电脑前发呆三小时。当我发觉后，决定繁密地计划自己一天所需要做的事。免得虚度日子也无法挽回改变事实。俗语说，吃不饱，睡不香，穿不温。人始终还是血肉之身，感情也不能潇洒地控制。


自然轻松地描述能平淡我心里的起伏。摘至一本小说里的对白，“虽然地狱之火燃烧着我，但是我还是向往天堂的道路。”

Those days i am lost.
Lately take hard to changing the my emotion, the day seem to be empty. Today i am sitting in front of my PC for three hours with nothing to do. I was realized that i need do something to full fill my day. No point to keep dreaming alone which not help myself. Makan tak kenyang, tidur tak mimpi, mandi tak basah. Human still made by blood and soul, cant over customized their feel.

The nature with ease describes can be light in my heart the fluctuation. Picks from a novel in the dialogue,"Although fire of the hell is burning on me But I yearn for the heaven the path”.

跳越三级烟民

曾暗地里去寻找戒烟计划，希望能在一起生活的时候。你再不会抱怨烟味的踪迹。始终你还是给我烟不离手的借口。或许我应该好好为自己健康想想，而不是为去满足某方面。希望我的觉悟是在我得肺癌前。

今天的烟量实在恐怖，三包六十支。这是我平时的七八倍。天啊。。。看来要进行经济封锁来克制自己的烟量。再者改变个人的生活方式。(这需要高尚的人生目标）我有那么清高吗？需要自我检讨。

Upgraded to 3rd class smoker.
Once secretly sought the no-smoking plan. Hope that you wont complaint to my clothe smell when we are living together. Unfortunately you was gave me a better excuse to take it. Maybe i should have better motivation think about it for myself and not for someone. Hope I can make it before too late.

Today i am took a lot of cigarette, sixty stick in a day, oh my... that is seven or eight times i has normally. Planned to use financial control to prevent this happen again, or i should totally change my life style.( this need strongest mind set) Do i have it, make a self-criticism.

忍着一切从这里开始

五月三日正式为这里记录着我对晓萍过去三年来的点点滴滴。不是旧事重提，也不是为了要赢赚你的泪水。这是一种让我慢慢消除心里的痛，一种回忆录。逝去的爱始终永远不会回来。哪怕等到有一天的海枯石烂的时候，我的心再痛也会停止流泪了。

无巧不成书，我们分手的那天竟然是我们相识了1225天。是命中注定吗？

还真担心我是否能写下去，我会尽量撑着。你也不要输我哦。加油！站起来。


Hold for this openning.
3rd May, starting this blog for my memorial with Jess. Not to remind or get your tear from you. This is just a way for me to erase my pain in this period. Love is over, one day this will over and ended.

Cant believe that we just passed 1225 days. Is it a fate?

I do my best to keep update here even i am doubt to myself and dont know how long this will last. i am gonna make it. You too, Jia you and stand up!